|To my dearest Rachel Katherine Owen
||[Jun. 19th, 2006|08:00 pm]
Katie & Rebekah;
All of this happening has really hurt my soul/heart. You, of all people, knew how I felt about Jesse. It hurt me because I trusted you. I trusted him for that matter, but I held you to much higher standards.|
I have learned to forgive you. I honestly would like to never talk about you and Jesse ever again. Because of this, I would never even like to talk to Jesse again. To me, I never loved him. I cannot love someone who will treat me badly. The only way I want to even acknowledge his presence is if he were to give me a million dollars or tell me that he honestly regrets EVERYTHING. By EVERYTHING, I mean, not only you, but Jessica, and few other things that he has really screwed up on. For real, I don't care about him anymore. I care about you enough to save our relationship.
I still want you to come down here and see me. I still want to come up there and visit, too.
I don't know. I think I have forgiven you, but no matter what Jesse says, he has completely lost my trust and all of my love. I am not even sure if I meant anything to him at all ever.
Katie, I love you. I don't want to lose you. I am still in shock of why anything like this would go on, but I expect something good, eventually, to come out of it for me. It may not. I just don't see why you and him felt compelled to do something so big like that. Especially since you guys never dated and those are things that I didn't even do with him. Can there not be just one person that you don't make out with? I just don't understand.
Katie, just know that I am hurt, but in time, I will be completely over it. He isn't worth both of our times.
Love Forever Until the End of Time,