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To my dearest Rachel Katherine Owen [Jun. 19th, 2006|08:00 pm]
Katie & Rebekah;


All of this happening has really hurt my soul/heart. You, of all people, knew how I felt about Jesse. It hurt me because I trusted you. I trusted him for that matter, but I held you to much higher standards.

I have learned to forgive you. I honestly would like to never talk about you and Jesse ever again. Because of this, I would never even like to talk to Jesse again. To me, I never loved him. I cannot love someone who will treat me badly. The only way I want to even acknowledge his presence is if he were to give me a million dollars or tell me that he honestly regrets EVERYTHING. By EVERYTHING, I mean, not only you, but Jessica, and few other things that he has really screwed up on. For real, I don't care about him anymore. I care about you enough to save our relationship.

I still want you to come down here and see me. I still want to come up there and visit, too.

I don't know. I think I have forgiven you, but no matter what Jesse says, he has completely lost my trust and all of my love. I am not even sure if I meant anything to him at all ever.

Katie, I love you. I don't want to lose you. I am still in shock of why anything like this would go on, but I expect something good, eventually, to come out of it for me. It may not. I just don't see why you and him felt compelled to do something so big like that. Especially since you guys never dated and those are things that I didn't even do with him. Can there not be just one person that you don't make out with? I just don't understand.

Katie, just know that I am hurt, but in time, I will be completely over it. He isn't worth both of our times.

Love Forever Until the End of Time,
Rebekah Faile

[User Picture]From: laserlightshow
2006-06-30 02:54 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry that I turned out to be someone you couldn't trust. I messed up. I messed up so fucking hard. And I'm so sorry that I wasn't the one to tell you. I'm sorry that I kept anything from you, ever. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

I know that you know this. I just read this, though, and it kills me to think that I hurt you. I never want you to hurt for any reason; especially me.

I miss you. I can't wait until I get the money to come visit you. I'll come during Fall Break && wait for you to come home from school. And we'll spend every moment we can together. I'll come visit you at school. And we'll rock that town inside out.

Love Completely & Unconditionally Until Forever Ends,
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